The Struggle

I often ask myself why i have to struggle with life and face battles that are out of my control. In my yearning to have a struggle-free life, i always find myself in humps and bumps. I have lived for only 28 years but it seems as if i have lived more than a 100 years already. Looking back i see myself going through a lot. In as young as 7 years old i have already suffered a major loss and that is my mom's passing. In those years God has molded me to become a stronger person. Each year would come and i'd be a different and better person. Yet it seems sometimes i don't feel that i have become or achieved a lot for myself. Maybe my goals are different, maybe my priorities are different. Or maybe i have set too much standard for myself. Either way i have become a different person in my own sense. I have known myself too well that i am not easily affected by what other people will have to say about me. God has directed me to this path and i'm willing to stand for it. The cross that this path bears is not light but i try to wrap my arms around it and embrace it in as much as i could only to show my God that i am willing. They say that to love God is not easy. One has to come out of his comfort zone and willing to to climb up the hill and go against the grain. This where i am now. I am goin up the hill and going against the grain. The path is hard. If i don't find happiness in this world maybe there is something in store for me beyond this earth.

Let me quote a nice reflection from St. Josemaria's writing in his book, The Forge:


141 As, sooner or later, you are surely bound to stumble upon the evidence of your own personal wretchedness, I wish to forewarn you about some of the temptations which the devil will suggest to you and which you should reject straight away. These include the thought that God has forgotten about you, that your call to the apostolate is in vain, and that the weight of sorrow and of the sins of the world are greater than your strength as an apostle.

None of this is true!

Good day everyone and God bless!